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22/12/2006 马勒格碧今天去一家日本公司面试,碰到件非常郁闷的事情.早上我去乘112,结果非常的挤,等了3部才勉强挤上去,还好我很早就出门了,在车站上我不时掏出手机看时间.结果一上车,还没关门,手机就不见了.我当时一掏口袋,空的.也没多在意.心想可能是放在另外一个口袋里了.当时只注意内袋里的钱包.因为皮夹子曾经掉过一次,所以我格外小心.而手机我又不是固定放在某个口袋的.我后面一个男的行为猥琐,老是挤发挤发,因为实在太挤了,所以我也没多在意.等乘了两站,忽然感觉不太对,便去确认下手机是否还在,结果发现左右口袋都没有手机...才觉得事态严重,回头再找刚才身边的那个男的,已经不在了.貌似是在第2站时假装让下车的人,一起下了车没上来.这世道真TMD乱啊!!去转乘316,等了15分钟没来一部,结果发现是夜宵车，只好走回一站去乘19路.哎..什么鸟事都让我碰上了.一路上我都在考虑手机找回的可能性,如果被偷,基本就不可能回来了,如果掉了,就有40%左右的希望回来.等我回家后打电话,结果发现先是无法接通,然后被关机了.那基本就是被偷.立刻去停了机.但还是不死心,还是希望能有好心人送回来.等到现在,基本算是绝望了.MLGB,礼拜一去办理补卡算了...我只知道以前北嘉线上乡下人多贼多,没想到市中心的公交车都有三只手,而且那人看起来是上海人.我只好在这里诅咒偷我手机的比样生儿子没屁眼,生女儿全是洞洞眼.但是,这又有什么实际作用呢
以前,我曾看到过按#06#看手机序列号,用它可以使手机完全报废,即使换SIM卡也没用.我也确实抄下了15位序号.可是今天我打电话去移动相关部门时,却被告知中国没有这种业务....靠,真TM落后啊.第三世界就是第三世界.还有某腐败的GCD统治,已经没希望了 15/12/2006 DepressionEvanescence - My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me... 最近一直想写点什么,可是却每每找不到合适的话题来写.并不是没有话题写,而是全都搅在了一起,无心去把它们理顺.
再好的事情中,也必定隐藏着失去一切的因素;再坏的事情中,也必定隐藏着柳暗花明的契机.
昨天我躺在床上的时候,怎么也睡不着,想起了过去的很多事情.说到过去的话,必定会想起KISEZI吧.但是,这次并不是单纯的回忆,而是总结,总结我过去所犯的许多错误,亦或是曾经错失的许多机会.
只不过,我到现在仍然不知道太执着究竟是好事还是坏事,或许我永远也不会知道,也或许,这个永远直到某个特定且必定会发生的事发生就会结束.然而,我错过了机会的确是事实,如果可能,我也会像电影里那样说:如果上天再给我一次机会,我会说三个字.....
因为太过执着而错过的其他更多的机会,我同样不知道是不是正确的,但是,这份执着却是没有回报的.实在是很难付之一笑啊.
人一旦怀疑起支撑自己的心灵支柱,必定会陷入非常苦闷的境地.2000年9月9日,的确是一个决定命运的日子,而因为我那无知的自信,把他变成了一个糟糕的日子,使命运之船向着坏的方向驶去了.无论如何我都应该做点什么的,可是,我做的却连打个招呼都算不上.也许就是因为这个愚蠢至极的举动,熄灭了所有的希望之火吧.后悔至此,我总会想起只要活着,就有希望 这句话,正如一开始所说的,塞翁失马,焉知非福.Everything could be okay,just have a little faith.Ten years might be not long enough.
By now,Im sorry i cant think more or write more.But everything could be okay,everything gonna be okay...after all... 1/12/2006 Everything gonna be overI lost a lot of things yesterday.Actually,its tow the most important things.
Of one,is my job.of cuz.and another is my emotion.My whole plan,my whole work have been wasted.And the reason y i deserve this,they didnt tell.and i didnt ask.they just say:you do not fit this job.Just like the preview one.it comes so sudden where i couldnt find any sience.
I did fight for the co., So this shouldnt be the end of me.i doubt they could even find a mistake made by me directly.
I'm not put away the responsebility.But I did do nothing wrong.Since this has happened,I will say no more word of it.But i ll see,the 3 newbie could do better than me?Or just,the 3 guys could make everything right?If someone dont have much knowledge about internet,how could he make sure that the problem is the net master?
But i no,some more people has a shame of me and they do helped me a lot.I thank you everyone here.Im a little shame,too.Wish us good luck.
And the second problem is the very girl.I m sure i will have not another chance.Even the chance is not so large before.Ten days.Its ten days from she came and I left.Maybe this is only a small stop in my whole life.But it means alot for me.Went home together 5 times,have lunch together 1 time.Thats fine.At least,I done.NO MORE HUGE SHAME FOR ME NOW.thx.
At last.I doubt the 3 guys which no to little couldnt work more longer than me. I ll see it.
All the mistakes must got a reason.And i am the very lucky man to be it.thats all. |
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